Saturday, July 09, 2005

on what is possible


(note: jeans are being held up; being someone who needs to buy "tall" pants, I detest the "cropped" look.)

two socks from one ball of yarn....

It’s possible; two socks (not matching, but that’s okay with me) from one ball of Fortissima colori (socka color), with some additional yarn ends used for the toes and heels. The small pile of yarn at the toes is 3-4 stripes worth of leftover yarn. I bought this ball of yarn, and another in a similar (but not an exact match, the woman at the counter was quick to point out to me) colorway in a “bargain” bin and intend to get a pair of socks out of it as well. (they really are the same size; the top sock was done first and I, uh, wore it around my apartment while knitting the second one…) I’ve cast on for another pair, and am going to re-swatch for Rogue later this weekend. The cool days are wonderful for knitting, and it makes a wonderful break from packing and moving.

My laptop (please know that I am tempted to write “table top” or “desktop” because I can’t ever recall a time when I’ve placed it on my lap) is aware of irony, and has been working almost perfectly since I ordered a new one. The few times it’s blacked out on me have been during email compositions, and I’m almost happy when it happens because I feel less crazy about the whole situation. The new one is ever so slowly making its way up the east coast to me (the UPS page is constantly loaded and refreshed quite a lot) and should be here Monday.

On what happened in London – my heart goes out to the families and friends who are searching for the people they love, and to those who are in hospital beds healing.

The world events that have transpired this week have caused me to pause and think about where I am, how lucky I am and how hard it can be to live in certain places in this world. I don’t believe in living in fear and despise that it could become commonplace. I understand that life should go on and if it doesn’t then the terrorists have “won” but I also think it’s time that we stopped and looked around and pondered if there is a better way. I am a pacifist by nature and birth, and cannot comprehend what would drive someone to kill innocent people who have nothing to do with the larger problem. If I spend too much time thinking about the big picture I become increasingly frustrated; thank goodness there are places like The Seeds of Peace Camp (an organization that brings kids from countries at war together, so that they can learn who the “enemy” is, and see that peace is possible; the overall program is amazing, and is more complicated then I can explain in a few sentences; each year the news profiles kids who are getting ready to leave, and they have a hard time saying goodbye to people they grew up “hating”) and programs such as Doctors Without Borders. There are people doing great things – they just aren’t usually headline news.

I have always said that I will be a mom, be it through pregnancy or adoption. My mom and I have had discussions about bringing kids into a world that seems to be focused on turmoil; the overwhelming conclusion I always come to is that this world will continue to need open-minded thinkers and people who know love and how to set examples of unconditional love. I can’t predict the future, nor can I “mold” my someday kids to be who I want them to be; however, if my intent is to raise them to be free thinking individuals who can make choices and decisions for themselves then I will be happy to watch who they become, and I will have fulfilled my goal.

“Knit on with confidence and hope” (EZ)

11 Comments:

Blogger J. said...

yep, I agree 100%,if there is one thing I have learned in the last year it is that education (meaning learning about one another) is central to peace. Great socks by the way

12:05 AM  
Anonymous Laurie said...

Yes. And yes.

5:32 AM  
Blogger Liz said...

I wish the headlines were filled with more good news of people trying to make the world a better place, rather than graphic details of violence and Michael Jackson. That in itself might take away some of the despair that seems so common in current times.

Great socks....what were you wearing on the OTHER foot? ;)

10:04 AM  
Blogger Bridget said...

The socks look great! FYI, I am going to the Seadogs group on Monday.

10:08 AM  
Blogger LauraJ said...

I had two kids with some misgivings (I didn't like babies much till I had my own) and they have grown up into very decent (if weird) peace-loving, left of center progressives who are fairly passionate about decency to other humans. I can't claim all the credit, because they are very much themselves, but I am very pleased that I provided an environment where they could become so likeable. Go ahead and have them.

10:10 AM  
Blogger Melanie said...

AGREED! :-)
Yay for the new laptop... be sure to tell us all about it when it gets there. You always seem to need money for big items... car repairs, laptops, etc. I think it's an evil scheme placed by someone who doesn't want you to have a wheel!

Also... great socks! Who cares if they don't match... that's part of the fun of handknit socks.

4:16 PM  
Anonymous Theresa said...

Glad to see you're back posting. I find your post particularly interesting as I'm on my Ob/Gyn rotation right now - and I just delivered my first baby on Friday! Absolutely amazing - there are no words. At that moment in time, when the slippery baby starts screaming and I realize that I didn't drop him after all, well, all the possibility in the world still exists.

When do you start clinical rotations? Getting excited?

6:04 PM  
Anonymous Cordelia said...

What a nice post. And what nice socks! Congratulations on the new "lap"top coming along; since your old one is "working" now, maybe you can keep it to have a back-up for emergencies (heh).

Good luck with packing. Where are you moving to?

9:35 AM  
Blogger Kathleen said...

Great looking socks. I can't believe you used just one ball. I will have to take a better look in future sale bins! Never thought to use add'l yarn for heels and toes. For that reason.

I have very little done on my Rogue...the hem and a very little bit of the sleeve. 'Course I have a mistake already...doh.

2:24 PM  
Blogger CrazyFiberLady said...

Great socks! Nice to know that you can get a pair from one skein.

Congrats on the new laptop and honestly, I'm not surprised the old one is behaving itself now. Computers have an evil sense of humor.

I have to say I completely agree with your assessment as to having children. My first reaction after 9/11 was 'how can I bring a child into a world where things like this can happen?' It was not long after when I realized that there was no way that I couldn't. I had to bring in new lives that would be supportive of all and open-minded. Besides, knitting aside, family is where it really is at. BTW, I had to cancel an appointment with my fertility specialist to schedule an exploratory surgery thanks to being stuck in NYC that horrid day.

Knit on indeed.

3:29 PM  
Blogger Cari said...

Complimentary socks are cooler than matching socks, anyway.

9:15 PM  

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